There's something about taking a shower right before bed.
It's peaceful.
I usually don't, but tonight I did. Any time I jazzercise in the evening, I must shower. I'm too gross not to. I love the feeling of being fully clean and crashing into my awesome bed. There's some sort of metaphor to correlate about washing away the day.
I wanted to wash off some of today.
I started off tired because I stayed up way past my bed time. Six-and-a-half hours of sleep just doesn't cut it for this reverend. I don't think as clearly. I don't remember basic things. Actually, the fact that I'm writing this on such little sleep is probably a bad idea.
Oh well, you're still reading.
There was nothing remotely bad in my day, just distractions. Stupid things that I shouldn't have to think on or worry about. Chaos, perhaps, is the best word I can think of. Chaos was my mind most of today. Even in Jazzercise... I was trying ot focus on jabs and step-jumps, and I was contemplating a deep theological question posted by my missionary friend to Madagascar. My brain just wanted peace.
No, my brain had to have peace.
You know what? I just wanted to offer peace to people. The kind of peace that comes when step out of our own way and let Jesus talk control. The kind of peace that lets me take a deep breath. The kind of peace that I desire so badly right now.
"May the God of hope fill you will all joy and peace as you trust him so that you may be filled with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13
That is my mantra right now: the verse that sums up my heart so deeply. I want to be effective. I want to change lives. I want to speak into those around me...the mentees, the small group girls, the strangers, the man checking me out at Wal-Mart. I want to show those people the hope the Lord has.
And, I'm hoping on a few things of my own. I like that the verse mentions not just peace, but joy. Because, just because you're looking for peace (calm, quiet, non-stress peace), it doesn't mean you're sad or melancholy. It just means that you should be filled with joy.
Today and always.
Choose it, will you? Get over whatever it is that's stealing your joy and causing you to lose hope and just choose to live in His joy. It will make life so much easier.
Alright, I have to go take that shower now. Sorry it's been MONTHS since I've posted. Things...well...things happened.
Peace Out, Home Fries.
Missy
P.S. - I no longer eat wheat. My body is shrinking before my very eyes. Seriously.
P.S.S. - I have a boyfriend...of about seven months now. God is good, isn't He?
P.S.S.S. - There's always hope.
